Horror Thoughts About God

Reading the Book of Lamentations and finding such heavy hearts. Destruction to a whole nation and the sorrow this brings to the emotions of non-redeemable.  How difficult to read of this event! I am in wonder how a heart can become this position of stress. I pray for the wisdom to keep my eyes and heart on the Lord's rescue for all my days. Knowing His mercy is perfect for every thought that enters my mind, Lord of all, keep me from being my own god and rescue me into the knowledge God only holds all my tomorrows as well as directing my day-to-day life.  

The core of my heart is to be the person/human/soul God had in mind when I was created. This takes a strong spirit and determination to follow the walk Jesus gave as example and power to move in. He is the only Way, the Truth, and my life! 

I find my thoughts somewhat shocked at the Lamentations read. So I ask myself, “Why?” Am I saying I have never had such horror thoughts about what God is doing? In my own despair, was my crushed heart always pinned on another human when it was God directing the path and bringing me into a new awareness of His love and mercy, His disapproval of my actions?  Do I hold myself as highly favored where my goodness is enough to hold off all anger from a God that has me excluded. Maybe I am in a place where His amazing favor has me so jubilant I cannot remember nor identify with the crushing and destruction of such Lamentation I read of?  

My heart tells me that You, Lord, have always got my good in mind. I have found that in my deepest despair, my weeping only last for a moment. You have come to bring Light every time. I found consistent rescue and each time better than the destruction the enemy can bring. 

I want to add to this Book in the Bible that Your Love gives breath we cannot otherwise understand. And with this Love, I find the greatness of living, the kindness in others. The pardon of my souls fall comes to be the wonders of my testimony. I am stuffed with much stories to tell. I am laden with overflow of goodness. I am passion that has much to spare because You are the overflow. I have the mark of Your glory and find it to be my dressing daily. In any weakness, there is always the strength of Your power to call upon. I am grateful to be Yours!

HIS EMOTIONS

Little is more powerful than the lightning bolt you see. Power moves from Source. When I am your Source, the way has no resistance. Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world.