Here I Am As I Was But Not

Papa, listening to the call. Listening to the hunger within me to find that place where You fill me up and not the fear and confusion that buries my heart in pain. 

My eyes feel so heavy as if my heart lost its beat and can only send out dreary messages. The wind outside blows with its own directions without considering my desire. Throwing its force against all in its path and owning what surrenders to its power. I don't want to do that with this pain. I want to find peace that comes from the Holy Spirit's care for everything in its path.

Oh my soul, be lifted up as the Master comes. Reach, reach, reach! For the bride has the garment for His love to find. My soul cries out for the plan that has been set by the powerful Wind that blows through my days. 

The invitation is a realm of beauty, a place of glory, a wonder to behold.  I simply stop so that I may see the focus of my Father's working upon earth and giving me this Fire to follow. Coldness can be such a miserable feel that I quickly challenge my soul to run to the Arms that hold me in safety.

All my thoughts stand at attention. All my hopes are turned toward these Eyes that see right through me and can build me upwards with faith to move mountains.  The enemy has been thrown out and the King of Glory expands as my heart receives what is rich and eternal. I line my heart up with such a treasure as the Work of such might from Heaven upon earth. 

My affections soar to the entering of the I Am. Observing in awe as my soul awakens to this aroma so sweet. Though I have rottenness, He enters to love me by declaring I rise up and walk. I throw off my crippled state of being and I jump into the glory before me. His love that sounds like the mystery of joy. His purpose for me to enjoy my life with a celebration He sees. He carry's my steps with great gladness and He invites me to see this abundance. 

I dance now. I dance for I am His child that He delivers from all harm. He gives His Name as mine and I celebrate such a time. For here I am, as I was but NOT. Here I am dancing my way out of turmoil the enemy tried to lay as my defeat. Here I am rejoicing that today... this very day is the time He created for me to find again His Name upon my heart and in a way that will give me abundant treasures... not a few. 

Oh how my soul rejoices for the mighty God knows me. Why would I think He ever forsakes me? I praise Him for He reminds me constantly of such love that could never forsake me in any way. 

Oh God, my God... I am forever grateful. I want to extend such love over all that I know. All that I am given. Thank You for the sweet love of more than enough. My feet begin their own time of giving. My whole being feels the touch and cannot but respond in a dance I will live forever to enjoy. For every moment with You becomes the foundation of so much more than that moment alone. 

Oh that I could encounter such growth that I inhale Your Words of life and move the earth to see You. To preach the gospel. Letting go of our offenses and dancing in the streets with praise. I put on Your garment of praise, my Lord. Thank You for my desires so strong. You gave me that! You gave me such an appetite for the wonders of Heaven's gifts. 

Oh how I rest. How the taste of letting go feels to the weary heart so heavy. Breathing has a medicine of newness. Standing still and consuming this renewing of my body, soul, and mind. Easing into my future as I realize it's all about right now.  

I listen... listen... listen as Your voice sounds upon the earth. Holy Spirit come... teach me to follow.

HIS EMOTION

Live life. Find the reason I created the flower. Savor the fruit trees. Listen to the ocean. Entertainment was created by Me. Joy sends a moment into an enormous story. Don't be afraid.