Wait

MY EMOTION

"Holy Goodness," my granddaughter often blurts out from a shaken attitude. Papa God, I too call out from an unsettled attitude. You have extended to me so much grace; filled with love that gives the heart new strength each time I'm sure I can't move another step. I feel unable to see this wonder, at the moment, and yet I know that it is there and working. I have experienced this to its great joy-dance so many times.

Waiting loves its reward; while stretching for this reward has the uncomfortable feel of being trapped. Waiting, in all its appearances; so different each time. So many emotions found in this erratic safe place with You. I suppose that is the whole purpose of waiting; beside oneself with senses so unable to communicate with the heart to be still and know... until, it can.

As I wait at Your request... "You're not waiting for _____'s decision, you are waiting for Mine" which You dropped into my Spirit Monday morning, June 8, I wrestle with the calm it throws at me... until, I pick up my own worry again and again. I have repeated it over and over to myself, working it into my heart. Giving it room to accomplish what You have meant it to do for my frightened soul. 

I wait.

This wait feels so cold. Like I've been locked outside a conference meeting all about me, but not invited. I want to be inside, stating my case, delivering a verdict based on my evidence so well thought out. But it just continues to be whispers of jumbled sounds rolling from cracks of conversations hitting my ears with its punch of fear covered with no understanding.

I surrender into the next moment of this day with my history of walking with You, Lord. Bringing to remembrance the mighty power of staying focused to Truth... You are Good. Hearing those songs that come from my soul, as my story gives life to my today. Reaching out and accepting Your grace and mercy that continues to carry me further. 

What feels like forever is only a breath or two; and all the growth in those few moments add up to the tsunami of Your kingdom come to earth working in my heart. 

I wait.

YOUR EMOTION

My Kingdom is present, now, working, delivering and gathering. Waiting is an act of stopping the sun, so to speak. A place marking its now with history of heavens filling with My fight for you, with you. Waiting is the invitation of the soul to bring the core of existence into line with open heaven.

NOTE: Joshua 10 speaks of five kings coming together to fight against Israel. Joshua asked the Lord to stop the sun so he could continue to fight (vs 12-13).  So the sun stood still and the moon stopped.